A Weekend's Musings X: Existence Truthful To Yourself

2015 was the twelvemonth I spent a lot fourth dimension trying to mould myself into person else. I can't genuinely squall upwardly how too when it started. The funny affair is that I genuinely idea I had a pretty skilful year. I possess got e'er idea that I knew myself quite well, which has a lot to create amongst my psychology background. I analyse everything peculiarly when it comes to myself (I swear I am non self obsessed), which is absolutely exhausting.

It didn't dawn on me til the real cease of 2015 but I possess got been working too working genuinely difficult throughout the twelvemonth on my blog, my career too on myself. Which at the fourth dimension felt similar a real fruitful operate of my labour soundless what was I working towards?

In my caput all my efforts of self improvement didn't possess got anything to create amongst anyone else, I only wanted to a greater extent than to survive better. It was exhausting, I set all of this endeavour into dreaming harder too working to accomplish it but it only didn't interpret into reality. My error was that my dreams were person else's reality too I wanted that just that. At showtime it confused me because I couldn't sympathize why I wasn't going anywhere too why I constantly felt dissatisfied amongst myself. Ultimately I felt crushed past times my ain desires.

The cyberspace is a dangerously wonderful place, it's whatever yous select to brand of it. I permit all the carefully crafted photos, tweets, snaps only all of it larn to me too feed this ridiculous want too targets I set into house for myself. I got myself into this ENDLESS wheel but I was clueless to it.

It took me a spell to realise what was happening too what I was doing to myself. Once I did I was able to focus on me too what it is that I genuinely want from my life. It also gave me a infinitesimal to appreciate where I am similar a shot at my life too all the skilful things inwards my life (cliche yes).

We can't blame the internet. Humans possess got a naturally style to want more, that is only life I guess.
Throw comparing into the mix, it's virtually definitely non healthy. I want I had idea of something clever to tell but comparing yourself is non worth it only don't create it (I appreciate that it's hard).

Links Worth Checking Out:

There Is Nothing Wrong With Black Girl Magic, past times Ashley Ford.

Elle Magazine Is Wrong To Call Out #blackgirlmagic, past times Tobi Oredein.

Observations Of An American In Britain, past times Laura Bronner. 

Why Do I Feel So Damn Guilty All The Time? past times Rosa Heyman.

Sorry, Not Sorry, past times Rowan Blanchard.

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Why does the weekend e'er become past times too then quickly? I don't intend nosotros volition ever know. I promise yous possess got had an amazing weekend too hither is to boot donkey Monday. If yous wanted yous could cheque out around of my favourite motivating TED talks to laid upwardly yous inwards the correct mood for tomorrow.

Zeynab x